Self Portraits of Maternity Life Inspired Through Peri-Natal Depression

The first image in this post stopped me in my tracks over on Instagram. I wanted to crawl back in bed and be as comfy as she looked. Little did I know, there was a whole story behind this photo… a series of photos photographer Justine Curran decided to create to savor this season in life: Maternity… Going deeper, the project helped heal some of the darkness pregnancy hormones can bring to a woman that she was experiencing. She shares not only beautiful photography, but an incredible story and conviction in how our creativity (photography) can be a method of healing. Even more exciting, we were able to include her follow up photos of her sweet baby boy!

Here’s what Justine Curran had to say about her Self Portraits of Motherhood Project:

I was over the moon to discover I was pregnant with my second child. It was something we had planned since our wedding 12 months ago. Our Daughter was now turning 5 and we felt it was now time to bring her sibling into the world.  Even though its quite personal I would like to share how I came to start documenting my journey through motherhood.

Soon after discovering I was pregnant I was over come with an influx of hormones. It was nothing I’d experience in my previous pregnancy… depression and anxiety consumed me. Morning sickness attacked my body and I could not even hold down water. For six weeks straight, I endured fluctuating appetite, from not even drinking water to suddenly can’t consume enough and feeling ill as I ate. I suddenly couldn’t even think about the impending doom of childbirth and life swallowing chaos of life with a baby.

It was all too over whelming and the very near mention of the word baby made me burst into tears. I felt so confused, Why was I feeling this way when I was so positively looking forward to it?  Soon I was experiencing so much anxiety I had convinced myself that I was surely going to die during childbirth and was googling things from haemorrhaging to other childbirth related conditions which I will not name because it will make you google them too and you will hate me for it.

But yes hormones. They do crazy stuff to your head. I one day came across a Facebook page Self Portraits Of Motherhood. A movement started to inspire women to get in front of the camera. A lightbulb went off in my head. In my deranged anxiety filled delusion this was the answer. Even though I cannot dictate my fate, I can certainly leave behind some kind of legacy. All this time I’ve been documenting families – including my own, but I have never included myself in these pictures. How on earth would my children remember who I was, what I looked like and the things I did if something were to happen to me? Would my daughter remember me brushing her hair in the mornings? Would she remember how I held her tight when she was not feeling well?

Hormones like I said does crazy things to your head. As crazy as I was at the time, it was what motivated me, its what made me think about the future and gave me a reason to get in front of the camera.

My morning sickness and anxiety finally eased off by 20 weeks and documenting what was happening in our life was a great distraction. I found that the project was great for experimenting with light and different settings/moments. It was great for personal development. My work has drastically changed since. I now regularly take part in different photo a day challenges. It keeps me thinking outside the box. I managed to capture things such as simple as moments getting through morning sickness, helping my daughter getInspir through sickness while being sick myself. Capturing my growing belly, to breastfeeding.

Now I have a lovely collection of images from my pregnancy and into the early days and weeks with my newborn. And I have peri-natal anxiety to thank for it. My little boy is is amazing and we both have been doing really well. It feels great to finally be myself and breathe again.

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You can follow Justine at the following links:

Website// Facebook // Instagram// Pinterest

About Justine Curran:

I am truly inspired by real authentic photographic styles. I want to capture honest and genuine connections and I do this by using a lifestyle and documentary approach in my family photography portraiture. Photography is my passion, driven by my own need to document my life. Soon I wanted to learn more about the world of photography and document other families just as I loved photographing my own.

Author: Eboni Rivera
Fearless and Framed's Course and Community Ambassador + Self proclaimed "Memory Giver". Eboni is a Family Documentary Photographer and Film Artist at Luxe Art Images, LLC located in Long Island, NY. She provides emotive, heart-tugging, feel good photography and films for families who give a damn about the preservation of their memories. Her approach to photography allows families to leave behind a legacy of who they are, how much they love and just how awesome their lives truly are.

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